Hard day at the office

This phrase means different things to different people. To me it means 12 days in a row between the next two weeks. With my degenerative disc disease and how busy it is in my department right now that means lots of stress and aggravation. I love what i do, don't get me wrong.  However, when you have to balance out helping the team members , hiring , training , interviews, orientation, payroll, along with reorganizing the whole area, you get 100 hours of work in a 40 hour week. I try not to take the stress home with me. I also try not to bring the issues at home to the job with me. I just am not sure that i will be able to keep the two separate with 12 days straight to look forward to. It is my fear that my quick temper -that i normally have under strict control - will force its way out so i end up snapping at someone whom has done nothing wrong. I am usually calm and controlled at work out of strict training. I have fought to control my emotions since i was little. I got picked on a lot as a child and my family loved to call me a cry baby every time i shed a tear. As i grew up i started to hate my self for every tear i shed. i would try to hide my tears and pain. No matter what the cost i would not let them see me hurt. So now i have a hard time feeling anything but stress. I am very good at feeling stress. That is one of the reasons why i am worried. I could snap at someone if i am tired and stressed and i will not feel an iota of remorse  for it. I would feel bad later after i got some sleep but in the moment i would not care. That is one thing i must try to avoid due to having built a reputation at work for being able to balance anything that is thrown at me. I will not fail at this. My parents raised me to believe you go to work no matter what. Holidays are just days to get more pay. the death of a family member is just another day and you can not change what has happened. you can morn in your own time work comes first.
My dad is the main tutor of this belief. my mom was the fun one and still is.
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